I’ve been away for a long time.
Shortly after I made my last post in September, I started suffering from massive anxiety attacks, night terrors, and feeling myself running straight into what I was sure was going to be a nervous breakdown. A lot of stuff had happened to me in the previous year and a half, and I was not handling it well. After some encouragement and advice from my patient, loving, amazing boyfriend, I got myself into weekly therapy sessions and found myself a safe place to talk out my problems. After eight months of that, I feel like I’m finally in a better place.
I have my own apartment, now, and a better workspace. I have more time to work on what’s important to me – my writing, and my crafts – and I feel like I’ll actually be able to keep to my internet commitments from now on. Also, I lost five pounds, which is a good step in the direction I’m trying to go in my physical goals. 🙂
First things first – my novel Resurrection is being posted on Wattpad, two chapters a week. Head on over there to check it out. It’s a similar setup to Fictionpress, but seems a bit more pleasing to the eye. Click the “book cover” below to check it out.
I’ll be posting later in the week about other projects I’m working on, both literary and artistic. I’ve got some neat things in the works and I’m excited to share them with all of you.
Welp, since The Techno Jesus has managed to beat me to a Gen Con 2012 post, I finally got up off my behind (or rather, sat down for once) and am getting this post written.
If you want to read about my wildly embarrassing but slightly tear-jerking (if you’re me) encounter with Wil Wheaton, then later I will post that but only if you REALLY want to hear it. It was actually pretty cool and he was really nice and kind of took my fangirling in stride, because he’s a bro.
Anyhow here are some pictures of me being a dork at GenCon. I stole most of them from my friends on Facebook, without permission. They’ll get over it.
One of those pictures may contain way more of a certain mercenary’s junk than I’m entirely comfortable with, but whatever. I kind of dork’d all over most of those pictures – I was super excited and running mostly on Diet Coke and glee (the emotion, not the melodramatic television show), and it was my first Con and I GOT TO MEET WIL WHEATON and I probably wasn’t getting enough oxygen anyway because oh my god breathing in that corset.
The Five Year Plan has more to do with my career than anything else, but there are some way more personal things involved in it, too. I won’t transpose word-for-word because I’m not sure that most of what I scribbled onto the napkin at work behind the register actually counts as WORDS anymore, more like smudges, but here’s the gist:
By December of This Year:
– DeAngelis: Resurrection done. No excuses. I had a light-bulb moment at work earlier that more or less fixed 75% of the issues I’ve been having with the entire freaking SERIES and so I’m ready to plow ahead. I turned in the first chapter to my fiction workshop I’m participating in this semester, and even people who don’t quite get it absolutely loved it. My biggest fan-boy right now is a pastor, which tickles me to death because I figured that would be the demographic the book would piss off the most. But, I guess you never can tell with bees.
– Be shopping for an agent. While I’m aware that ebook self-publishing has kind of opened up a whole new avenue for writers and authors, the fact of the matter is that the publishing houses still have a lot of power, and a lot of clout.
– Have A Short Story/Novella Done, or Nearly. I need to self-publish something, regardless, and I’ve got a few little ideas that I could churn out in a week or so and throw onto the internets.
By December of 2013:
– Book #2 Finished. There is actually a title for this one, I just can’t remember it at the moment, and I’m too lazy to go document-hunting. Regardless, after graduation, I’m going to have way more time to be working on my writing even if I’m working full-time. There’s no excuse to not have the second book of the deAngelis series finished.
– At Least Two Novellas/Short Stories E-Published. Can’t hurt to get my name out there.
– Professional(ish) Website. While a blog is great, a website will be even better, with a link TO the blog, or the blog being part of it. Something snappy, you know? That brags about what a great writer I am, and points people to the work I have available on e-readers, and points out that if someone WANTS to pay me to proofread or line-edit their stuff, then I am more than willing to do so.
– Get The Heck Out of Dodge. Terre Haute is butts. I will not get trapped here.
By December of 2014:
– Book #3 Done.
– Books 1 and 2 Published.
By December of 2015:
– Supporting Myself With My Writing. Or editing, or a combination of both. Either works for me, as long as people are buying my stuff.
By December of 2017:
– Own a House. Or at least have a house that I live in that the bank owns and that I am paying them back for. The house must have an office
– All Five Books Done, Published or very nearly all published.
– Studio. For various crafting adventures. Sewing, dying my own yarn, power tools. Lots and lots of power tools. I will accept an air-conditioned, well-lit, not-dusty workshop in the backyard with a great stereo and Wi-Fi.
Welp, I’ve managed to keep myself up until a ridiculous hour of the morning, but there you have it. My plan. Lets watch me stumble through it!
You’ll notice I don’t mention QoS at all, that magazine plan that didst crash and burn most predictably. Honestly, life kind of hit me in the face like a trainwreck right about when the critical workload needed to get done, and I just couldn’t handle it. Also, having experienced what needed to be done, I realized that the whole project was a bit too lofty for just me and Sam to handle. I would need a part-time staff of four or five people, at least, and that just wasn’t going to happen. So, maybe one day, when I have mountains of cash to just throw at hopeful young interns, but for now it’s a failed experiment that I can learn from. If you submitted work to QoS, all the rights hereby revert back to you. I release you! I’m so sorry to have gotten you all excited for nothing, but think of it as a learning experience and enjoy the opportunity to go submit your work to someone who has got it way more together than I do.
And with that, I think I shall head for bed. I got hit with a mild case of food poisoning earlier this evening and I definitely need to rest up before the three (ugh) exams that I have tomorrow… all before noon. Good night, all!
So, I owe y’all an apology.
Especially the people who have submitted to QoS, and are waiting with bated breath to hear back from me. I’ve fallen a bit behind. Yes, it’s going to be late. Not by much! but real life has been kicking my butt and I meant to be sending out contracts like two weeks ago at least and that hasn’t happened yet, and I can’t publish until I have contracts signed. So that’s going to be my task here for the next couple days.
I’m now shooting for July 4th as the publication date. That’ll give me a while to get contracts out, get them back, throw together the files, and then get it out there. To people who submitted to QoS, I am so, so sorry that you’ve been waiting so long. I know I said I’d let you know either way what the decision was on your work by June 15th, and I’m painfully aware that it is now the 19th. Look for an email from me by the end of the 21st.
I feel awful about doing this, but QoS is by no means anyone’s bread and butter, so I needed to prioritize the pest control issues going on in my apartment, and my continued (and fruitless) job hunt. I ask that you guys be patient with me, and I promise that you’ll get something worth the wait. I’d rather you guys get something done correctly and well and a little late, than get something slapped-together and incomplete and half-assed but on time.
If I have time in the next couple of days, I’m going to write a series of posts on Strong Female Characters in pop lit/media, so look for that, I think you’ll enjoy it.
Anyhow, here’s David Tennant, who is the only one who can express just how sorry I am.